Introduction
Scriptures of Ranting
Sigh.. Everywhere I look in class, everybody so cheerful, unbothered by life..
whereas me,
whenever i see myself, from another person's point of view,
i look so crappish..
so devoid of stuff..
and meaning..
This week alone, I've lost another dear friend..
Just like part of you just left for good..
Never to return..
"You never notice me,You only give me the least of attention,the ones deserved by slaves.If this continues,I think its better that I leave.." --Anonymous STOMPer.
Let's see what I did today in class..
Today, I got arrowed THRICE!
1st was during Geog.. where Paul Ng call my PW group up, demanded us for our shit report which is with Endang.. and nobody wants to take it back from her to photocopy.. As the stupid leader, I was arrowed for this shit.. which i am not going to do..
2nd was during Science, where I went to the toilet, came back, I didnt receive the notes.. when Ms Qiu walked around the class, TH was laughing beside me.. and SS told Ms Qiu I do not have it.. she was pissed and sent me out of the class.. ALL BECAUSE I DIDN'T ASK HER..
So I spent a miserable 13minutes outside..
3rd time was during Malay.. where Cikgu Sadiah called my name to read shit.. I dont fucking know how to pronounce those Yalam words.. fucked up.. Cikgu Tiny-a came in and sat around.. "observing" our class.. she threatened us with more Malay lessons.. she tried to instill the fear into us.. but the fear was repelled.. retarded.. we only entertained her by saying a meek "Yes"..
Theres the 3 Times of Arrowing...
1 Single Achievement I achieved today, was getting 13/32 for the Maths Test..
although 3 marks short of passing, Mdm Ng praised me for improving a little..
Yes fuckers.. I always fail.. I never get 2 digits before..
And at the same time, I finally beaten some Math geniuses..
for the first time.. but whats the point?
My life is already limited and the
Sands of Time in my Hourglass of Life
is running out already.. with only about a few grains left..
Its only very soon that Im gone..
Looks like I will have to live the remainder of my limited life in Seclusion..
Back to my old days of a Hermit..
Avoiding the spotlight,
living only in darkness..
Sorry.. I look at things very differently now..
And I feel this is the best solution..