Introduction
Scriptures of Ranting
Everywhere I look,
people seem so happy
and yet sad
at the same time.
Heroes would try and console those
who are sad
Most succeed but there are still
the failed ones
One glance across the class at 11.45am, 6 people were sad..
2 people were tired,
so they slept,
Silently I cried in my already dead heart,
cursing myself,
"Why am I like this","Can't I do better","Why can't I be like them"
I cried for myself,
a twist of fate allowed me
to just barely
pass this term.. 50.7
One more serving of salt to the opened wound..
I woke up in my drowning,
faced the cold harsh face of reality,
it was staring at me,
mocking,
taunting,
despising
me,
It's time to get up
and make my last stand.
Be it successful or I will die in vain,
I shall
list out the 3 factors that would cause me to suicide now:
1)If I retain
2)If I go into Single-Science
3)If I get kicked out
1 thing that cheered me up for awhile,
Geography, I got my first A since PSLE.. (insult and laugh all you want, gnats..)
80 marks, quite low.. people are already getting 85+..
because of this 80 marks, I passed,
If i gotten 65, it would be a fail.
Chinese, that whore,
she did it,
she broke my masks,
she,
she marked those whom she
1)Hate
2)Cannot Control
3)Cannot Help
And I am in that group, together with the CMI bastards.
and worse, the teacher who would be teaching this group of bastards.. will be the
young and inexperienced male..
i will salute him if he can control that bunch of scums..
change them into saints,
redeem them from their foolishness.
My hypothesis on why am i in that group:
She Hates Me Because She Cannot Help Me and Therefore, Not Able To Control Herself,
that would sound minor to you, as did i thought,
but,
somehow,
it struck me in the face,
straight on,
full force.
I could not recover from the strikes and
finally leaked out my first few emotions that people saw..
the true me..
hidden under layers of masks,
for years,
finally only they saw it..
they did the most logical thing,
that is,
to,
try and console,
to no avail..
Release me from this prison,
end my torment,
there is no value left in life..
I am a Forsaken.