Introduction
Scriptures of Ranting
An axe came down at him, nearly severing him in half if he had not side stepped in time, he was weaponless at that time, and his assailant was still lumbering around,trying to remove his axe from the ground as he thrusted too deep. He used one of the enemy goon's as a pole and jumped, jamming his foot into the axe wielder's unhelmed skull, crushing it immediately with his spiked tip war grieves.
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Geog.. 21.5/30 wtf la.. could had gotten 22.5/30 or 23.5/30.. foolish..
I've finally met someone of my calibre, someone who gamed almost the same things as me and watch the same retarded videos.. Actually i met him ytd at tuition, at first glance, i could tell he was a gamer from his eyes, the kind of "longing for his pocket of radiation" look in his eyes.. the way he spoke, yes, he did add in words like "L-O-L", "R-O-F-L.. whenever the tutor spoke to him about something sarcastic, or teased him, that boy would, rebuke by referring to some stuff in gaming,
for instance
Tutor: " If i put you with X in a wrestling match, i think he will win, even though his way smaller than you"
The Boy:"Right, I would just take my Gravity Hammer or Energy Sword and saw you both in halves."
Apparently he gamed too much and ends up talking about games in his normal conversations..
Its like as if he literally sold his soul to Gaming.
then there's this nerd gamer sitting beside him, that nerd was actually "dead" but the mention of Halo or any games, awoke him and they starting crapping about the parodies such as TSAH series, or whatever that interest them.
I couldn't bear to join the conversation because I already shed that part of me away, I could not stand it anymore and luckily my time slot was finishing and i left..
This person, somewhat of a mirror of my previous self.. I realised how stupid I was, falling into the quicksands of gaming.. and finally starting to get out of it slowly.. If i had spend the lost sands of times on something more productive like, studying,learning a new sport or whatever,exercise, I would be alot of different than what i am now.. Too much radiation I had absorbed.. My memory is very good, up till now, i can still remember the stuffs in the games i played years ago..
If only i used that free space of my brain for something more productive, i would have not failed.. I had good goals last time, now, they are nothing but just a fragment of my dream..
Spending more time in front of the computer than family.. thats the most retarded thing i ever done.. i condemned myself.. yet i dont know what still spurs me on in life.. maybe its the hunger for more pixels and radiation?
maybe its my long winded dream?
4 years already, 1460 + days.. this feeling of suiciding has been trying to engulf me, somehow, some part of me is still fighting for my essence..
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